kenapa singgah

kau hadir tanpa diundang,
kenapa kau singgah ?
kenapa kau pergi sakit kan hati sendiri .

haha .
tapi bukan kah itu yang kau
mahu lihat ?

-
dia happy kan
kau happy juga?

terserah.

Another 7 days..

Sebenarnya perasaan ini
Hanya Allah swt Maha Mengetahui

Bahagia
Takut
Berkobar Kobar
Semuanya seperti rojak dah .


Hee. Syukur Alhamdulillah
diatas Cinta dan Kasih Sayang Awak!
I know this is very short notice to you
and for me either.
but this is FATE.
and I hope Allah swt will ease our journey together
InsyaAllah!


Jadilah suami yang dihormati,
Jadilah suami yang terbaik,
Jadilah suami idaman ya sayang...
Saya akan berusaha untuk jadi yang terbaik untukmu,
Semoga Allah swt jadikan saya seorang
isteri yang sabar dan bersyukur...

Sungguh, saya terharuuuuuu
dan terima kasih awak kerana sudi terima saya
apa adanya..........I love you too..

harapan

rupanya ada takdir aku dengan perkahwinan 

semoga berjaya hendaknya . 

360 Changes

Kiri Kanan aku bukan
sesuatu yang aku biasa buat dulu

Kekok Tak Biasa
tapi aku cuba
kerana langkah yang aku pilih
kali ini adalah sebuah fitrah

walaupon kau aku dah tiada
tetapi baik kau aku bawa
tetapi persona kau aku takkan lupa
baik baik lah kau hendaknya
semoga luka yang cedera
kan kau dan aku kering segera

...

I set you Free

Those were the days when hours were like minutes, and minutes were like seconds. The days, where we can’t live without each other’s touch. Moments when I thought that all I needed in this life was you.

It was you, you all along. You were in my mind, my heart, and my life in a way that nobody can take away from me.

Until you started falling apart while I was struggling to mend you from completely breaking. I thought it was just a phase where I had to prove that a heartbreak is not enough to pull me away from you. I thought it was just a phase, something that will pass, but it never did.

The look on your eyes changed. Your hugs started to lack warmth, you held me like you didn’t want to. I was slipping away from you. In a way you wanted to.

You utter “I love you” just for the sake of it. You started to feel less thrilled about seeing me, and important dates don’t even matter anymore. From surprise visits and long messages to unreturned calls and unprepared anniversaries.

I felt like it was not me anymore and I wish you would have told me.

I knew I had to let you go not because I didn’t love you but because I did. Setting you free was an untold truth when you unloved me.

You think it’s the beginning of the end, when the truth is that it ended long ago.

Something is off. You’re not quite sure what it is, when it happened, or why it feels like something has changed, but something is off.

She is different. She’s not the same fun-loving girl you fell for, and she’s not the same ray of sunshine that brightened even your darkest days. She has become more reserved, and she has offered no explanation as to why.

She still touches you, but she no longer feels you. She looks at you, but she no longer sees you. She talks to you, but she no longer communicates with you. She’s with you, but she is no longer present with you.

You’ve lost her.

It ended when you weren’t looking, and it ended when you weren’t paying attention.

It ended when the minutes to respond to your text message turned into hours. It ended when she stopped initiating the conversation with you. It ended when enjoying each other’s company turned into uncomfortable silence. It ended when she stopped telling you what was on her mind because you stopped asking.

You were hearing her, but you stopped listening to her. The silence became commonplace. It became home. It became normal. You thought the silence meant that she had nothing to say, when it was actually screaming at you that something was wrong.

You forgot that you have to love her when you’re tired. You forgot that you have to love her when you had a bad day. You forgot that you have to love her when you’re angry. You forgot that you have to love her when she’s angry. You forgot that you have to love her when it’s difficult to love her.

That’s how you lost her.

When you look over at her, all you’re seeing is the shell of the woman who used to be there. She’s gone. She didn’t change — you did; you were just too blind to see it.

The change you see in her is nothing more than the side effect of your emotional neglect.

It will likely crush you when she ultimately leaves for good, and understandably so. It will be a sad day, and a sad occurrence. But what will be even sadder is that you either didn’t see it coming, or that you did nothing to try and prevent it.

That’s why you lost her.

And when that day comes, it will truly be your loss.

yang berlaluuu..

Aku sempat baca tulisan dahulu,
satu muka, dua muka,
apa hidup aku penuh duka?

atau aku boleh menulis apabila
hati aku sedang terluka sahaja?

----

well,
when I look back .
I smile.
I smile again..
I never imagined that I had walk this far...
and still with you,
the same you,
 ego,
 angkuh,
 childish,

hmm. sebenarnya ahad lalu
kau buat hatiii ni nangges lagi tak berlagu.
kau biar semua salah pada bahu aku.

Scared

I had told my friends I was scared, scared that I was falling too fast and petrified you were going to hurt me like every other guy had done in the past.....

hmmm.